it all begins on the mat

Riding the wave of change the last few weeks I have felt on the verge of crying and cheering all at the same time. Yes, I’m still riding that wave. Buying a yoga studio was getting in the way of me practicing yoga. Typical dichotomy of life, right? When you’ve got money, you don’t have time. When you’ve got time, you don’t have energy. Like many of my yogi friends, I had to prioritize the infinite tasks of living life and finding time, energy, and the mental strength to make it to the mat just wasn’t happening. And I knew it. And I thought, “This is just for now, sometimes we need to sacrifice more”. Finally, one night this week I went to bed at granny/kid time (8pm) and woke up for an early yoga class before a long work day. By the end of the class, I wondered, what was it that was really keeping me from this? I really couldn’t find the time? What are my real priorities? My to-do list melted away (albeit temporarily) and I felt so much more ready to tackle the many challenges that lie ahead. It was the right amount of physical challenge to get my energy flowing. It cleared my mind of the incessant “I’ve got too much shit to do” chatter. It put a smile on my face. My to-do list seemed cute rather than heavy.

I learned this week to be careful before I give up that which keeps me the most sane, energized, and happy in my life. I am so thankful to have found something that can give me those feelings/gifts. Many people never feel that way. I love that yoga welcomes me back time and time again with open arms, and always feels good no matter how long I’ve been away. I felt sore, but not so sore I hated my instructor. I felt challenged, but not so much so that I was exhausted for three days after. So, get out there, hit the mat, ride your wave, ride your bike, read a book, find your zen, and all else will follow, I promise. Just do it!

Posted in health and wellness, lemons, life, remember | 2 Comments

I’m having a yoga baby!

I’m in the no sleep phase of the pregnancy.  I get heartburn via e-mail at least twice a day.  I’m feeling emotional and have a breakdown once a week wondering, “why am I doing this, I’m not ready!”.  The nursery is only halfway setup, there are papers and folders everywhere, and I’m due in a week!

Yes, it’s true!  My baby is named Smiling Dog Yoga.  The due date is next Friday.  I’ve been being cagey and shy about talking about it online, but I think it’s time I share this wonderful news with my world and document my feelings and thoughts.  I have been given the wonderful opportunity to be a bigger part of the yoga studio I’ve been teaching at for the last 3 years.  I will be taking over as owner of the studio 10/1/11 (what a nice number).  The transition through October will be a little slow as I honor commitments with MINDBODY. Those photos are of me in the studio.

What does this mean?  I will be leaving my awesome travel, desk, teaching, software job and will be trying my best to make the studio a place people want to be part of, practice yoga at, shop at, eat at, feel the love at.  Yoga has changed my life for the better and it is my hope to share that with others.  I have to make it a viable business as I am spending every dime I have, and many I don’t to make it happen, so numbers, business, budgets, the bottom line will be something I know very well.  It will matter that it can support itself and me, and if it can’t, well, lets not get negative yet.

I’m super excited and feel so blessed to be able to take this kind of adventure.  Timing is such an interesting phenomena, isn’t it?  If I hadn’t came to grad school in SLO, I wouldn’t have found MINDBODY at just the right time.  If I hadn’t found MINDBODY, I may not have gotten the amazing experience of helping wellness businesses grow for the last 5 years and the confidence that I could be an entrepreneur, something I never imagined I’d do.  If I hadn’t failed my grad school qualifiers I might be teaching a bunch of apathetic college freshmen math.  If I wasn’t honest, open, bold, and available to the owner at the right time, maybe I wouldn’t have had this chance.  If I wasn’t saving as much money as I could the last 3 years, I wouldn’t have been able to make it happen, even if I wanted to.  I am so humbled that all these stars aligned to help one of my dreams come true.

And it was a dream.  Even if I wouldn’t let myself say it out loud.  I remember the first time the dream seed was planted.  I was studying graduate level math with a friend, we would meet up after I went to yoga.  While I was working on homework I thought, “I’d rather just do yoga, or maybe run a yoga studio, than study this abstract subject that is driving me batty. Ah, that’s funny, and it’ll never happen. Back to studying theorems and trying to prove the unproveable.”

So, my adventure begins, and has already begun.  It is more work than I ever imagined.  It’s more paperwork, patience, insurance, money than I thought possible, and “they” lead you to believe.  It’s already rewarding me too.  My website updates and pricing changes have brought in people.  I get to see the stoned-yogi-bliss-look all the time.  I love being able to connect with the staff and students more, in a way that wasn’t really possible when I was only there a couple hours a week.

So it’s official.  I’m about to be a yoga studio owner and rock that shit.  I hope you’re ready for me SLO :)

Posted in life, livelihood, remember | 1 Comment

keeping the yogic energy alive

How do you keep the yogic energy alive when you’re working your ass off trying to make great things happen and achieve your dreams? It’s not really the inspiration that’s difficult, that is always there. It’s the energy levels and sheer amount of time in one day that seems difficult to manage. For those of you who pay attention to this yogi-health-roxtar-life blog, I promise it will not die! It is merely undergoing transformation and will be back with a vengeance soon my friends. Very soon.

  1. I am doing a spontaneous roxy-style cleanse this week.  It entails of no alcohol, wheat, dairy, processed foods, sugar, caffeine, cheese, parmesan, cheddar, oh, I said cheese already.  I am inspired by this cleanse by yoga journal, although at this point I have made up my own little routine.  I also like this cleanse by Dr. Doulliard.  It’s important to do what you can, do what aligns with your values, lifestyle, and tastes, and don’t take it too seriously.  If you have a time of year you always get sick, cleanse a month prior to prevent it.
  2. I take one day off a week. Period.
  3. I have sacrificed my yoga a bit, but not my meditation practice.
  4. I have sacrificed sleep. I get up as early as needed to feel good about what I can get done in a day.
  5. I sing karaoke.  It’s surprisingly inspiring.

PS. Doing 108 Sun Salutations was amazing!  It took 2.5 hours, my ham strings were worked afterwords, and I’m going to do it every year and I’m going to try to do it on the solstices/equinoxes.  Whose with me?

Posted in health and wellness, life | 2 Comments

108 to celebrate

summertime sun

My birthday is coming up soon and I’m going to try to do 108 sun salutationsto celebrate another year of life and blessings; cleanse the body, mind, and soul a bit. I’m predicting it will take 2-3 hours, it usually takes me 1-2 minutes per sun salutation.  The number 108 has significance in many cultures and for many reasons.  The fact that it is connected to a bunch of nerdy math facts as well as yoga, well, I just can’t resist.  I’m excited to give this a try.  If you’re interested in joining me for part of this celebration, hit me up!

  • Traditionally, malas, or garlands of prayer beads, come as a string of 108 beads (plus one for the “guru bead,” around which the other 108 beads turn like the planets around the sun). A mala is used for counting as you repeat a mantra—much like the Catholic rosary.
  • Renowned mathematicians of Vedic culture viewed 108 as a number of the wholeness of existence.
  • This number also connects the Sun, Moon, and Earth: The average distance of the Sun and the Moon to Earth is 108 times their respective diameters. Such phenomena have given rise to many examples of ritual significance.
  • According to yogic tradition, there are 108 pithas, or sacred sites, throughout India. And there are also 108 Upanishads and 108 marma points, or sacred places of the body which are said to converge at the heart center (chakra).
  • 108 is a Harshad number, which is an integer divisible by the sum of its digits (Harshad is from Sanskrit and means “great joy”).
  • 108 is twice the number “54″, which is the number of sounds in Sanskrit.
  • Some say that 1 stands for God or higher Truth, 0 stands for wholeness in spiritual practice, and 8 stands for infinity or eternity.
  • 108 has numerological significance in that 1^1 x 2^2 x 3^3 = 1 x 4 x 27 = 108.
  • The angle formed by two adjacent lines in a pentagon equals 108 degrees.
  • The diameter of the sun is approximately 108 times the diameter of the earth.
  • The distance from the Sun to the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Sun.
  • The distance of the Moon from the Earth is 108 times the diameter of the Moon.
  • “One feels great. 108 is a journey.” -Shiva Rae
  • “One represents union, zero represents the void and eight is infinity ” -Ben Thomas


sources: Yoga Journal,
Yoga For Peace Santa Cruz

Posted in health and wellness, life, yoga reading | Leave a comment

money, sex, or power

“All who are to become teachers will be tested in three areas: money, sex, or power – possibly in all of them.” said Yogi Bhajan according to the book Kundalini Yoga, The Flow of Eternal Power.

Isn’t everyone challenged in at least one of these three areas at some point in their lives? I suppose not everyone, but I wonder. What a neat little challenge package this provides. Watch out for money, sex, or power, they’re like the boogy man hiding around your next curve! This cycle of life I am challenged by time. I am moving. I am trying to change my career a bit. I am trying to practice yoga for reals yo, rather than acting like those five minutes before I pass out on my couch count as meditation. Balance is elusive sometimes. But change is good. And money, sex, and power are sneaky little devils that may be behind your next freak out or fearful moment indirectly. Watch it. And maybe add ego to that list.

Ziggy Marley said it best, the only thing that lasts is Love. (He is in in this months issue of Yoga Journal). I will keep that in mind.  Toodles for now bloggerini peeps. I miss you.

Posted in life, random, yoga reading | Leave a comment

SLO Porch Lettuce Wraps

As I get ready to embark on an epic adventure over the pond, I leave you with yummy food inspiration. While I’m doing my best to find vegetarian food in the Netherlands and not gorge myself on gouda you should make and eat this in my honor. Looks delicious!

One of my favorite cookbook authors from theppk.com says, “I could call these White Bean, Nectarine and Asparagus Lettuce Wraps With Edamame Pesto, but I’m afraid you’d fall asleep reading that!”

lettuce wraps

“Sometimes location just guides your hand in the kitchen. In the Northeast, I gravitate towards root vegetables, in California I sneak avocado into absolutely everything, and when I’m in the Pacific Northwest, a tiny fairy with stretched earlobes and full sleeves whispers in my ear, “Put some fruit in that.”  (Since I’m in California I give you permission to have your avocado and fruit both!  Break the rules!)”

“I’m like “Wha?! Fruit on my pizza? Fruit in my sausages? Fruit in my beans?” And the fairy is like “Yes, yes and yes!” And I’m like “What are you listening to?” (because she has an iPod shuffle on) and she’s like, “Nothing, you’ve never heard of it.” Then she brushes her black and white bangs out of her eyes.”

Click here for the full recipe…

Posted in life, recipe | Leave a comment

battle with the sun

summertime sun

How do you enjoy the summertime? For me it’s often signing up for too much to do, tank tops, blown out flip flops, trying to avoid sunburn while at the same time enjoying that bright orb, BBQ, friends, vacation, the Elks Lodge pool (it’s so awesome), sleeping with the windows open, and fruit smoothies for breakfast. I hope you’re enjoying some of the bounty of this season of fire and change. One of my favorite summertime songs is below for inspiration, hurry click play!

Being a firey red head (pitta in the ayurvedic world), in summer I enter my yearly battle with the sun, summer, and heat. I love summer, almost to my own detriment. I have found myself sick twice in one summer, with numerous cold sores, a completely lost/hoarse voice, highly anxious and exhausted most of the time over committing to life and not taking care of myself well enough. In yogi nutrition it is thought that like increases like. So if you feel overheated and are noticing inflammation, spicy, hot foods will just increase those issues. You have to keep cool in this warm season and what you eat is part of that. Each year I get a little better. This year I am in love with my epic sun hats and long sleeve shirts, sleeping enough, eating tons of berries and greens, and taking it a day at a time. It’s so easy to let the seasons turn into years and to forget to enjoy the present moment. A good life doesn’t necessarily mean doing every single thing you are invited to, or that you have an inclination to do. I have also learned that it’s important for me to participate with a different energy level. I don’t need to be on fire, the life of the party, every single time I’m out and about. It’s OK to be in the background sipping water and the first to go to bed or yoga. I’m off to cycle the Netherlands by bike in a couple weeks too and I don’t want to be pooped on my adventure :)

Dr. Doulliard, an ayurvedic physician I dig says that eating dark, leafy vegetables every day, eating decadent amounts of berries, and copious amounts of plain water are three major ways to survive the season without burning yourself out. It has really helped me feel better and the berries are amazing in California right now.

May you keep yourself cool, and sunburn free this season. There are tons of summertime songs out there, even New Kids on the Block did a song in their day!

Posted in ayurveda, health and wellness | 1 Comment

keepin it real

I really enjoy self-deprecating humor. I love that the interweb allows us to share such awesomeness.  The following is something that’ll make you smile (I hope).  Here are some lyrics from this work of art to inspire you.

This Busters on his iPhone talking to his friends,
Picking up some cayenne pepper for his master cleanse.
You’re the most annoying dude I’ve ever SEEN brah…
Could you PLEASE move? You’re RIGHT in front of the Quinoa.

Damn, I’m about to check out.
Pay my 80 bucks for 6 things and get the heck out.
The express lane is moving hella slow…
Man, these fools don’t know… that shit is getting REAL….

Posted in funny, random, technology | Leave a comment

My Core Was Officially Fused

While in NYC a couple weeks ago I had the opportunity to try lots of different yoga classes, food, and fun, as one would expect in one of the world’s largest cities. I had an asian style tofu hot dog at an outdoor food market. I enjoyed a picnic dinner in my hotel room of sushi and pizza slices. I was lucky enough to get my ass handed to me at a Core Fusion class at Exhale Spa which got me wondering about my yogic-cycling ways. It’s a class that combines pilates and dance bar strength moves, with a little yoga and weights. I got up at 6am before my last day of work in the city, which is very difficult in that city. I started looking at the clock within 10 minutes of the class starting. It was one of those classes where you notice your limbs shaking uncontrollably and you watch in awe, wonder, and exhaustion. What muscle is that? How is it vibrating so profusely? The class was taught by one of those New York beauties that exist everywhere in the city, probably a dancer-actress-model whose ass did not look real. She kept adjusting me like crazy and I was just praying she’d leave me alone because I wasn’t doing it poorly because I couldn’t hear her, I just couldn’t make myself shake any further or my muscles would give out!

In the end I really enjoyed the class. It challenged me efficiently, quickly and in a different way than what I’m used to. I am thinking I need to take more of these different make-my-legs shake classes. Don’t worry though, yoga is still my main squeeze. Maybe we’ll add some moves to shake up my next yoga classes?

On another note, I had an easier time focusing on my yoga practice while traveling than I am having now that I’m home. It’s been one of those weeks where I can’t seem to get up early enough and keep forgetting that I need to get my practice in, that I want to get it in, and that it’ll make everything better. And wine tastes entirely too good this week! Cheers to another new day…

Posted in health and wellness, life | Leave a comment

Pyramid versus Plate

my plate

The U.S. Department of Agriculture replaced their old school pyramid with the new MyPlate graphic.  The interweb is all abuzz like a kid in a candy store. Is this really that big of a deal? I wonder how much do people really turn to the government for this type of advice and how much this graphic will change the trend of increasing obesity and unhealthiness in general.  Is this possibly another band aid for a bigger problem?  Maybe we can consider what drives us and our kids to overeat in the first place?  The 2000-3000 marketing messages the average person sees/hears each day?  The stress of the “economy” or not being able to support oneself or ones family?  Big business agriculture and their constant agenda to keep turning profit?  The fact that ketchup is considered a vegetable in school lunches? Don’t get me wrong, I like the plate.  And I like ketchup. And cheese. Wait, I’m losing my train of thought here… the plate is actually how I try to eat in general, and it’s a pie graph, who doesn’t love a good pie?

Some organizations mention that MyPlate is at odds with agriculture subsidies that promote high-fat, high-calorie food products. It’s also at odds with the fact that fast foods, unhealthy foods, freaking taste good and we are human after all.

Interesting thoughts to say the least. I appreciate what Mrs. Obama is trying to accomplish in her fight against obesity and hope that this is a step in the right direction. Let’s hit farmers market this weekend, shall we? Eat some carrots and strawberries with your breakfast.

Posted in health and wellness, recipe | Leave a comment